a story about me and the gang + a song i wrote oooo

its about this girl im friends with she's an internet friend, we got to know each other on stardoll a bit more than a year ago
her name is alex, she was in the gang too haha the gang was me, alex, ella and lexi ive told you guys about them i think
anyways, we got into a HUGE fight a few months ago and then we didn't talk for a really long time
its a long and complicated story idk there was this hate blog that everyone ignored at the start but then something happened and ella started thinking i was the person who made the hate blog so she got really mad and i posted a topic on stardoll how im sick of the gang and how we're not even that good friends and some other pretty stupid things, lexi got really pissed off and called me an attention seeking cunt and stuff so yeah after a lot of fights and mean words lexi, ella and i weren't friends anymore and we stopped talking
i was still friends with alex and everything was kind of fine for like a month i tried not to think about ella and lexi and it was hard tbh
then i dont remember why, but ella and i started talking again
mine and alex's friendship was fucked, she had new friends and one day i guess i was in a pretty bad mood so i went on my private twitter account and wrote like a ton of stupid indirect tweets thinking alex isnt online ((she actually was)) and ella agreed with me and alex saw it and ya she called me a bitch so yep i unfollowed her and she unfollowed me and ya
this probably made no sense whatsoever but yeah this song is about alex
alex once wanted to see it so i think its safe to post it here since no one cares about this blog anymore
you guys should know that im not a good songwriter i just like doing it so \m/ and i have this problem - i never finish the song like idk i just get bored or something yes im a cunt i know
and you probably won't understand some parts but it doesn't matter cos its not for you i just want alex and lexi to see it ha

Im so smart and pretty, cant you see?
a fake bitch, not a day dream, Im real

you only live once, well I'll live twice
I'll live three times, four lives if that's what it takes
I'll show you Im the best at what I do
I get what I want and I'll get you too

what a nice year we had
365 days, we never cared what anyone says
baby, Im just good with words, but what are you good for?
a naive child, a silly teenager
youre just a stranger

I wasted my time on you, thats a year I'll never get back
you're trying so hard to look intelligent
intelligence is just an illusion, just another tweet you sent

who would've thought we'd end up like this
it wasnt even a proper kiss, who know we'd walk away so pissed
words can cut like knives

I threw my knives at you, I already know I missed

this whole song is just another thing you'll reblog
tomorrow or today
just another gif you fell in love with
a gif of a naked girl or a photo of a dick

I wish I could give you more,
I wish I could slap you, whore

you think the whole world stops when you're upset
and everyone should care when you cry in your lonely bed
and I must always help you with your silly problems
something your stupid friends said
and things you think you did

everything you start is something you can't complete
you need a reality check, mate
who are you, stop trying to be an internet sensation
because it will all end in destruction
what are you waiting for, a standing ovation?
oh, you''re so young and dumb

it's a good thing you'll only live once

what a nice year we had
365 days, we never cared what anyone says
baby, Im just good with words, but what are you good for?
a naive child, a silly teenager
youre just a stranger